Sleepover at Ameily's was a blast.Tho we had frequent visits to the kitchen.Well,I can't help it if I'm always hungry lol.Now,I'm getting more nicknames which is NOT right at all.It should be ME that's dishing the nicks out...not the other way around.Went visiting again today...got to see my cousins again.Ate delicious food.Damn,I miss my aunt's cooking.Its been too long.I want to repaint my room,its so dull.I want something new...like having illustrations,my poems or even those little quotes I find off the net.I need to run the idea by my mum first.I don't want to her strangle me lol.I still want 3 kids,despite my H.U.G.E fear to commitment.

The sequel to Carnival Of Rust is in the works.Nowhere near the halfway mark yet but gimme some more time,I should hit it.The title is inspired by a Finnish band called Poets Of The Fall.The sequel is darker than its predecessor.New characters will be introduced...new twists will be added.It ranges from betrayals,accusations,self-denial,lies,jealousy,dishonesty...all the sins of life will play and mash into a single moving picture.My characters will be put to the tests and survive.Throughout the ordeals,its also about love and the struggles.Its about overcoming them despite how much disappointments there are in life.Its not who you love but how you love and you hold onto that love...and the sacrifices that come along with it.

Wrote a poem for my dearest partner.Hope you like it just as much as I enjoyed writing it!!

My Russian bloke turns 21 today.Why do they always look older than they look?And why oh why is he soooo far away?Can someone mail order VLAD TOPALOV or SARAH SHAHI for my birthday next month?Prewty please??

Its nice to see all my cousins.Since we only get to see other like once a year...its great to catch up and just annoy them silly.And boy,do they grow up fast.It seemed it was just yesterday,everyone was still growing up.Some of my cousins have grew to become good-looking fuckers!!Ha!Among all my cousins,the ones I'm closest to are the ones I grew up with...and its nice to see and know that whatever it is,we're still close despite our age gap...but most importantly,we have the BOND!!!Playing UNO to randomly poking fun at each other...I love the atmosphere.No tension or barriers whatsoever.Free to be who we are...free to say what we want to say without restictions.We were cursing a whole lot but it was all in good fun.And guess what?Each of em have special nicknames of their own lol.So WHEN or IF I ever do get married and have kids,which I would love to have anyways...the nicknames will kick in.Poor ickle kuzzies of mine...hahaha...oh well.Seems to me that the lot of us are gonna be having inter-racial relationships and marriages!!Someone's gotta break the trend,its bound to happen anyways.

I want to get out of here...I really do.Nothing is what it seems anymore...wherever I turn,its the same.Remember how I said I'll come back...but seemingly at how everything is going,I don't want to anymore.I have my reasons.I'll only come back to see my family and close friends.Apart from that,I wouldn't want to come back.I'm still deciding if I ever should come back once I live overseas.I am ashamed to have....who are fucking arrogant and think none of us are worthy enough.What are you?Fucking Mafias or royalty?Please don't insult the names that way,they do have dignity.One FUCKING day,I will be somewhere where my dreams become MY reality.And you know what,the lot of you mean NOTHING to me.Just mere memories that once existed but thoughtlessly thrown aside like dirt.That's how I will think of you now...and throughout the years.

Bumped into Mirah today...nice to see you after so long.Miss ya heaps gorgeous...and where on earth is that Aini Jane?Oiiee woman...I miss you!

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That's where I wanna go and leave EVERYTHING behind.Where I am will ALWAYS be home but there are SOME or MANY things that I do not want to associate myself with anymore.Don't get me wrong,I love my family & friends.I had the good and bad memories but that's just it...MEMORIES.I will come back but it won't be anytime soon.Mao & I were at the airport the other day,having dinner.As we walked around aimlessly,the amount of people was like...whoa!Years from now,it would be OUR turn.Its a bit strange to be jet-setting off to a country that seem many miles away from here but its what I want to do...or NEED to do anyways.Life is meant to be lived or NOT at all...so why hold back?LIVE IS MEANT TO BE LIVED FORWARD...NOT BACKWARDS.I have come to love and appreciate my close friends very much.You know who you are!I miss the old times but that's just it...its OLD.Time to move on to bigger things.I don't want to care anymore...its done and over.Save it for others who need it.No point in crying over spilled milk.First of all,I cannot wait to go Europe next year to see Mich & Ilkka,then come back here to do my degree before finally...working...and then...when Mao & I are ready,we'll be off.
EXAMS ARE OVER!!!After weeks of intense and late night studying...it has finally come to a close.GP is next.It's not THAT hard...5,000 words.Should be a breeze considering I love writing and my current story has over 60,000 words.Speaking of which...the end is gonna come soon...so...I'm glad and dreading it.Hahaha...but a sequel is on its way...just drafting it here and there.Nothing is confirmed yet...tho I do have an idea on where I want it to go.

I got cupcake her red paper as requested.I love Poets Of The Fall,its such a wicked Finnish rock band with great songs that have such profound words and meanings.The lead singer is uber cute too lol.Have a listen and you'll know what I mean."ILLUSION & DREAM" & "CARNIVAL OF RUST" are my favs...very good.

Was talking to my partner last night and the convo we shared...well you know what went down....THANK YOU MY PARTNER!!

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