Friday, September 29, 2006
I wrote this for a close friend(whom I hold very dearly to my heart)You know who are you.What happens in my life...what I go through and feel,everything is written down and transformed into poems/songs.That's how you'll know what I truly feel inside.Its how I communicate.I won't say it verbally as I am really horrid at expressing myself.But when something strikes me really hard,that's when I'm at best.Many things have happened,some good and some bad.Inspiration doesn't come easily.Writing is in my blood,its my passion and love.I can't understand why people say its difficult to write.I read in a book that writing to certain people would be "asking a stone to bleed".So I guess I can see why thru the metaphor.Anyways,my friend asked me if could write a poem for her.No one should EVER go through this.I've been there before and trust me,it isn't a nice place...so here it is.
GONE FOREVER
One day
We were friends
And today
We were enemies
What drives me out of my mind
Is your false pretense
All of you was just a complete distortion of facts
So forget all of what we had
Filled with so much insincerity
You commited a treachery
Which was just another trickery
In that book of yours
Believe me when I say
I care
But you lied to me
And naively, I fell for it
As the tide turns
Taking my heart along with it
What fails to concern me
Is your convincing lies
I thought you were cool
But I was wrong
I thought you were real
But I was wrong
When the lies were exposed
You ran and hid in your cave
And the ties that once held us together
Broke and shattered by your dishonesty
How could you come back
And apologize
How could you demand back
Our friendship
When it was you who destroyed it
Is this worth my tears
What else is left to do
Are you worth fighting for?
But you know what
I don't care anymore
And whatever we had then
Is done and over
Burn away all the photographs
Turn away and carry on your path
Maybe one day we will meet again
For now,everything is gone
Gone forever...
xxx
Thursday, September 21, 2006
This poem is dedicated to ALL my friends(new & old)Now,I know I'm not a very open and talkative person so this poem shows and tells what I feel inside.This is my only way of communication.So here goes.I love each and everyone of you guys...I really do.I just don't say it often but deep down,I care and love you lot.We might have our disagreements and agreements but whatever it is,don't reach out to hatred.It will kill what we strive to keep and believe.Its the ups and downs that makes the journeys worthwhile and you know what?Our journey has just begun my friends.Keep the friendships alive despite the obstacles life places in our lives cuz friends are important.You need them to keep you sane and alive...and not cold and alone.So to all my friends out there...I love you.
Lift Me Up
Do we need reassurances
And think nothing is wrong
But deep down inside
I am not strong
Delightful friends
Are what I have
They are my world
Even though I've never said it out loud
Scared to admit this
Am I being dishonest
Thinking it is real
So this is what I shall promise
You lift me up
Whenever I was down
You lift me to the top
Whenever life had me drowned
Thank you my friends
For the joys
Thank you my friends
For the memories
I don't need reasons
Cause you make me feel real
Without playing a total stranger
Even when faced with dangers
Show the world who we are
Whatever is inside us
Yearning to burst out
With excitment and robust
Listen to the wind howling
Even as we drift endlessly
Watching the tides flowing
Just imagining what our lives will be
Terrified of what the future holds
It is a story left untold
But when it begins to unfold
What shall it behold?
Will you believe
What lies in front of you
Will you try to see
What ties that lead us to each other
When you read this
I hope you feel honored
When you see this
I hope you feel loved
Whatever wonders that will appear
In this life or the next
Wherever we are in this world
Let us not forget
Who we are
Where we came from
When we became friends
And what friendships mean
I might not say what I feel
But know this
I do treasure you lot
Even though I have failed many times
In telling you what I feel
Please forgive me
For being locked up behind my wall
Please forgive me
Thank you my friends
For being real and sincere
Thank you my friends
For being grounded and unique
Thank you for everything
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Someone Like YouTell meHow could this beShow meHow should this beIts the sameEverywhere I goPeople are rushing byAnd I can't thinkWhy did you stop the hands of time?Have you lost your mind?What was the crime I commited?But you were no longer mineSo leave it all behindAs we become blindedBy our words and actionsWhich was followed by our reactionsWords were exchangedAngry thoughts were expressedBitterness evadedAnd the darkness attackedMy heart poundsWhat am I going to find inside?Ropes that binded us beforeHas finally come undonexxx
Friday, September 08, 2006
2 down...1 to go.Honestly,I cannot wait to finish and hand this assignment in.Very proud of my AD,big thank you to Ameily for helping me with the layout.Looks like a damn real ad tho.Found more pictures of my Russian loves.Hahahaha...heaven help me!I swear I'm completely obsessed with these two blokes!Ahh well...we live life once...so...LIVE IT!!!
School's gonna end soon.I can't wait for it to end and yet,I don't want it to end.I don't get to see my friends again...well I do but not often.Its been fun all these months.I got to meet new people and widen my circle of friends.Its such an amazing chance to know them.I miss my diploma class...well who doesn't?I hope to see all...or most of them one day.Once these assignments are done,I'll organize an outing where everybody can go out and have fun,just like the good old times.Maybe another bbq perhaps?Somehow,I don't feel like organizing.Everyone is already divided and falling apart.So it defeats the purpose of me organizing one...unless someone convinces me otherwise!
I want a golden retriever and a cat when I live in England/Scotland.Haven't thought of the name for the pup tho.Any ideas?
xxx
Monday, September 04, 2006
ZOMG!!?!!I FOUND IT!! HIS SONGS!!!WHOOOHOOOHOOO!!!
I'm gonna annoy my sayangku wife to get me his CD.Wahahaha!!!Mum and sis saw something nice for her.I'll go check it out once I've handed in my assignment.Come back soon and safely my sayangku!!And Ilkkaman...where are thou?Come online!!!I missed you very much too!!
How Could You?
I am trying to explain
What I feel
I am trying to reason
What I know
Look inside your heart
It is not that hard
You kept in the dark
Without any light
How could you
Blame me
How could you
Frame me
How could you
Shame me
How could you?
I love the pic!!!!I love Vlad!!!And Sergey!!!
xxx
