My lil bro was HERE!!!Yes yes!!!He was!!And it was soooooo nice to see him again.After all those months he was in aussie and then wham...he's back!I didn't know he had came back...not until the phone conversation where I mistook him for another friend of mine.We hung out and it was just really really nice to see him again...my lil brother whom I love to bits.I wish I had spend a much longer time with him.He was here for abt 3 weeks but that felt more like 3 days!!Now that he's flown back,I miss him all over again and more.We WILL see each other again lil bro...I love you.

Anyways...my previous story is on HIATUS.I've just started doing another.Yes yes,I know I shouldn't stop or even abandon my previous story.The ideas just came.I'm really not sure where or how far the story will go.So if it gets finished or not...I have no idea really.If it does,its brilliant but if it didn't...well too bad.Don't expect so much from it or my other stories.I've written so many and most aren't finished.I have no idea if I will ever finish em or not.Ha!We'll just have to see.Even the one that I was bend on finishing isn't finished and I wrote that like...almost 2 years ago!Ha...I'm listening to music and writing the story as I'm blogging!Music helps...it really does.It helps me conjure up the scenes and images in my head...and then I'll just re-assemble,break it down and then re-assemble them until I'm satisfied.Neat huh?IThat's how my stories are developed.I can imagine some scenes already...just like a movie!!Whoohoo!!I love creating the scenes and introducing new characters.And then being in the position to write what and do what,its a great feeling.Right now,I'm listening to NightWish?Ever heard of the band?Its a gothic metal band that hails from Finland.I love the songs...awesome band who is almost rivalling my fav goth band,Within Temptation.But the lead singer,Tarja Turunen has left the band to pursue a solo career.Ever heard of Liv Kristine?A Norwegian singer who is prewty good.European bands are on the rise these days which is a good thing...something new and different.

Anyhoos,the lot of us got Hazel her birthday pressie.Class was chaotic as usual.Justin and Winston are crazy but adorable...hahaha!!I've finally talked to the person whom I've never spoken too since school started.Its always 2nd term when the ice breaks.Same thing happened in my previous class.I didn't know half the class and bam...we were hanging out and having fun.It didn't take long before we became close.

Tho I feel they're drifting away from me...or the other way around.I think its the latter.I don't know.Some things in life needs to be lived in order to be understood.So do I understand?Or am I still grappling with the issues at hand...or is there any to begin with?Like I've always said before..."Don't know...Don't care and not bothered".The golden motto that I still live by.I admit I'm more subdued now but that doesn't mean its completely gone.Its just dormant but if becomes necessary,then everyone around me better start running...FAST!Life's setbacks are not suppose to hold us back or paralyze us,its to constantly challenge ourselves and for us to learn from the mistakes we did without realizing them.I'm not perfect...none of us are so mistakes are bound to happen...right?

I'm walking down the road of redemption.

xxx

Yayy!!!Finally...after weeks of intense stress,its finally done!!Whoohoohoooo!!!School starts next week...how soon.Went out with Hazel today.I swear that woman is insane but triple that when it comes to me.Hahahaha!!!Played this random PC game.FUN yet CRAZY!!Had food at our usual place.The food is absolutely yummylicious.Mich and Ilkka,if you two ever come here,I'd bring you ducks there.Saw the usual ppl today.I love hugging Lynnette!!She's soooo HUGGABLE!!!Darling...must gimme more hugs okay?I LOVE HUGS!!!Its nice to see them again.I mean,I wish I had our old class back but that's never gonna happen.I do have the fond memories.We had some good and bad times but it was all worth it.We had UNITY and we BONDED.Two of the most treasured things a class should have.I just want to know my class better.There are some ppl whom I haven't even talked to before!!!Eeekk!!Strange isn't it?I mean,we see each other in class and yet,no words are exchanged.Smiles here and there but no convos?Ahhh well...we'll see how it goes yea?Who knows...we'd be good friends or at least friends...and that's a start.

Ever seen an accident that happened right in your face?Well...let me rephrase it.I wouldn't say or call it an accident.Accidents are for cars...household errors and so on.But have you guys had someone...or anyone...just drop right in front of you...LITERALLY?Like the weeeee-splattt kind?You know...the sound of bones crunching,connecting aganist the hard concrete...blood everywhere...splattered everywhere and a twisted mangled sight of a motionless body?Something like that happened to me...once.This is my story...a story that happened a long time ago.

I was only twelve or thirteen...still a growing teen but it was enough to scar and traumatize me for life.Even today,I can still picture the scene and hear those awful noises inside my head.It was hard.Even though I never knew the person,guy or girl,whoever they were...they did not stop to think about the consequences.Or perhaps I was there at the wrong time...I mean,I'll never know.It was a normal day,bright and cheery.There no signs of dark clouds.I was walking towards a row of shophouses(I had to cross this road)wanting to get snacks.It was the normal route I always took.I never took shortcuts.So as I trudged along...I walked under this particular block and just as I stepped out from the block...the victim fell from whatever floor he/she was on.Blood was everywhere...and I do mean EVERYWHERE!!Some even landed on my feet.So you can imagine...it was broad daylight and someone just drops dead in front of me.I never knew this could happen to me but it did.I was shocked and frozen to the spot.I didn't know what to do.When something like that happens,you never think.Actions speaks louder and I agree.My heart stopped beating momentarily,reeling from what I was seeing.Everything in my rational mind went blank.And my brain had already taken a snapshot or two of the scene,etching it permanently in my mind.It was something I would never...ever forget.Several seconds later,I recovered and bolted.I didn't look back.So in the end,I never got my snacks.It didn't matter,I lost my appetite.I never stopped running or even tried looking back.I was afraid that something or someone might fall in front of me again.I didn't know where my legs carried me.I just wanted to get away...and I did.

I carried this secret for years.Yes,I never told anyone or showed the signs.I took it in my stride and dealt with the situation.It was not easy but I worked with and around it.I know I should have told someone but its too late.No one knew...not even my family.I didn't want them to worry.It affected me badly then and it messed me up a little...well,I still am but I'm coping and learning.Till this day,I do not know who the person was.I avoided that place for months before I finally had the courage to walk there.And guess what?The blood stains remained.

So...did I paint a clear picture for my readers out there?

I want a Germany jacket.Yes I do.Saw a couple on the net and it totally rocks.I sooo need to get one!!I have like...2 jackets?Yeah...how pathetic I know lol.Saw one that I really really like.I hope its available here!Baby told me where to get it so yayyy!!My exam "partner" is no longer Ollie but...APRIL!!Hahaha...in her own words..."It is an honor to sit next to her" and an honor it is my dearest friend!!Looking forward to sitting next to you for the next batch of exams!!Been writing a handful of short poems lately...most of them are in my cellfone.I don't think they're good but...I know some ppl out there who would love to smack me silly.Ameily & Hazel are on the top list.Anyways,I'll post one here.

Pre-warning!!I don't normally post my poems or stories so this is just one of the rare ocassions that I'm publishing it.