My ZEN almost died on me...note the word...ALMOST!!!!Aarrrghhh!!! *swears* This is NOT good at all,I'm a music addict...I NEED MY MUSIC!!!!HELP!!!!!Okay...moving on.What else is there to blog about?Sometimes I'm too lazy to blog but then again,my friends will yak at me to update so here I am!!Grandma was here and when she's here....she makes YUMMY food!!Hahaha...yea...I love grandma's cooking!!Was chilling at General's place yesterday...and guess what ppl??!I am hooked on FIREFLY!!!Yayyyy!!!Blame Ameily(but I still luv ya anyways darling!)but I tell you...the show was absolutely WICKED!!!I LOVED IT!!!Whooohoooo!!!I've only managed to catch 3 episodes but damn...it was fucking good!!I think I shall bug my sister to get me the DVD.Had a dream where I killed 4 people...yeah...sadistic I know but dreams are dreams,I don't have any control of them.They just...happen!And last night,I was asking someone for his autograph.Hahaha...BUT he was such a cutie pie!

Bought my sayangku wife(aka Mich)her present and I'm gonna send it off wee soon.I'm sorry for sending the gifts so late!!Been staying home alot...nothing much to do really so just been lazing around and doing my story...attacking it with such ferocity.I'm more than halfway thru and I've a got a good feeling about it so yeah.Its DEFINATELY gonna get it finished.I'll make sure it does!I have this bad habit of writing stories and then ditching them(without ever finishing em)to start on a completely new one.HA!See see?I'm prone to doing that.I get distracted easily as ideas have their own habit of just barrelling into my mind.Its like...think of a traffic light that's spoilt and traffic goes haywire,heavy and chaotic.Well that's how it is in my mind when ideas start clammering inside...screaming for bloody attention.So if and when any of you catch me day-dreaming...then you'd know that I'm trying to sort thru the ideas and ease the "traffic of ideas".Ameily can't wait to host my stories...and probably read it too.The first story's simple and there aren't much,think about 26,000 or so words while the second one has over 44,000 words and there's plenty more to come!!Ha...so much for short and simple stories.But I love this second one...love how its flowing and going,makes me actually feel that I'm the one inside but I'm not...or maybe I am?I dunno.I've just planted a few bits and pieces of my character and instilled it onto the main character and as for the rest,some of em I've based em on my friends.As a writer,I can't feel everything so I see and observe my friends and put a little bit of themselves into my stories.Hope they feel honored that I did.And when these stories are done,I'm gonna print em out and they'll be one of my most prized posessions!As it is,some of my mates can't wait to read the stories.I wanna let them read it but at the same time...I'm too terrified.Yeah...that's right.I'm scared outta my damn wits!!Its embarassing to let ppl read...but these are friends whom I love and trust em but then again,the feeling of low-confidence will set in.But there is this saying, "To write something,you have to risk making a fool out of yourself".

And guess what?The quote IS right!My sister told me that I KNOW what my obstacle is and what I can do to overcome the obstacle BUT the only thing that's stopping me from getting through,over and pass the barrier is myself.I'm the one that is stopping everything.So now,I'm gonna work on finding a way to overcome it.Its gonna be bleeding tough but what's life without struggles and truimphs?

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Me,sayangku wife mich and my ducky elky finnish friend always have something or someone to make fun of...lol BUT that's the beauty of our friendship.MICH!!!I LOVE YA VERY DUCKY MUCH!!THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME!!!AND ILKKA...SAME GOES TO YOU TOO MY ELKY FRIEND!!! And I can't wait for next year to meet you two...it is gonna be POOPYLICIOUS!!!!May next year...here I come....woooooooooo!!!!!

Went shopping with my sister a couple of weeks ago...didn't buy much BUT sis did get me a wicked jeans-like material bermudas and two boxers from TOPSHOP.After paying the stuff,the salesgirl said we were qualified for the membership card.Wicked...TOPSHOP does have some great clothes so getting their membership was a bonus.She got a nice top,it really does suit her.She also got me my T.A.T.U cd which I have been wanting for ages!!!Finally!!I own one!!Whooopeee!!Now the only thing left that makes it complete is getting their first album and their autographs!!But you know something ppl,I haven't even opened the CD from its casing!!Hahaha!!Its still all wrapped up and new!!Yayyyy...thanks loadzzz sis...I love em and I love you too!!Even tho we have our fights and disagreements...I will ALWAYS have your back and be there for you.That's a promise.Anyone who tries to double-cross her...you better start running...fast!!Re-did my sequel...yeah...I actually wrote everything from scratch again.There went my 6,000 words,my friends thinks I'm insane lol...guess I am...in some ways.Re-wrote everything and now,I am proud to say my story has over 9,000 words and still counting.I'm SO proud of it and its predecessor.Its gonna get completed,I'll make it does.But the strangest thing is,I can't seem to pen another Harry Potter story.Its very weird considering it was with Harry Potter that I started writing and now to write one...well I just can't seem to do it,like there is no inspiration whatsoever to drive me.Sad really...but I have the utmost respect for J.K Rowling and hope one day,I would reach where she is.

I know I haven't been updating my blog lately...I DO try lol.Shall try to post more.I'm gonna change my layout...maybe in the next entry,I shall change it.Kinda getting bored with the old one and have set my eyes on a few layouts already...just gotta choose which one.Suddenly,I am fascinated with Moscow,Russia.Since I am going off to Slovakia next year...I wouldn't mind visiting Moscow since its gonna be nearby...or at least that's what wifeku mich says.But still,its MOSCOW...whoa!!!Been staying home alot and drinking bubble tea.Had a can of coke today and when I looked under the tab,it says I had won something.Wicked...all that's left is to pick it up.

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First bit of news,my sequel is slowly(and I do mean SLOWLY)progressing.I have only abt 2,000 words and there's still tonnes more to write and sort thru...so chances of me finishing this one anytime soon is not gonna happen.By hook or crook,I am gonna finish the sequel.I want this to be a two part series...or somewhere along that line.My first completed story had errors,quite a bit of it and I had to re-write and added some stuff in.Now it looks much better,neater and the flow of it is so much more smoother.Writing's fun...and I love it.Yippee yayy...all that's left is for me to publish it somewhere.Ameily says she can help me host it...what do you guys think?Haha,I'm just fucking scared to let ppl read actually.To my friends and ppl who have read my works or are gonna read it...you really ARE lucky cuz I really hate showing ppl my works.Its just strange.Anyways,school's gonna start in a month's time and I can't wait for it to start.Made more new friends...whooohooo,I really love broadening my circle of friends.Don't see any harm in it...especially overseas friends.Went to Ameily's house last week and it was fantastic!!!We bought french fries,squid balls,bubble teas and watched CSI...it was just awesome,THAT particular episode just rocked!!The mighty queen Mirah joined us later,I kinda scared her actually lol...and I am really glad she didn't punch me!!If she did...well I think I deserved it lol.Terribly sorry,it won't happen again...promise!!Played UNO and Scrabble...my tummy got a wee bit upset(think bubble tea and french fries don't go well together lol)

Cleaned up my room today,it looks so much neater...and less dust too.Picked out 10 of my best HOTWHEELS cars,gave them a wash and leave em to dry.Now they are proudly sitting on my cleaned out racks in my room.I love my cars,I don't get dolls.I really don't.I used to break my sister's dolls when I was young.Sadistic I know but I was just a kid!Yeah yeah I really did that.I am surprised my sister didn't break my cars.I swear if she did...hmmm let's not get there shall we?I love my cars,to me,they are just MY passion and I love collecting them.I make sure every car I buy or my mum,sister or dad is kept in EXCELLENT condition.I hate throwing my cars here and there,I just don't see a bloody point.There's only about a handful of my cars that I threw about(they do bear the scars lol)but most of em are in good condition.I like my cars in tip-top condition so in years to come,they will be worth something.I still can't find that model I want..the 1969 Chevrolet Camaro SS z28.Anyone who finds it,can you PLEASE let me know??Many thanks!!I absolutely ADORE that car!!!Its so fucking hard to find it!!Aaarrghh!!!BUT I saw one model that I fell completely in love with lol.Its a 1959 Plymouth.Whooohooo...FUCKING sleek sleek car.I am gonna own me own of those when I live in England...whooooo!!

Was at school yesterday,met up with some of my other good mates and it was really nice to see all of em again.Cheryl has a nickname...no one can escape me!!Bwahahaha!!And I love bloopers,I really do!!Played old school games at Queensway and it was really OLD SCHOOL!!Went walking around IKEA with Kor,General and Mumu.Mumu and I were discussing our "England" home which would become a reality in a couple of years from now.And we did quite a wee bit of planning and what else what we should have and not have.But living there,we MUST have a car...at least own one.Doesn't matter what the model is,as long as its a car on wheels that we can zip around,I'm fine with it...tho I would love to get a friggin' BMW!!

I don't mind living in Canada...hahaha...its kinda nice there.But then again,England somehow appeals to me more....and Scotland too!!!Mich!!!Where are thou??I miss you!!!Come ducky back online!!!And Ilkka,where are you too?!?!With your ducks??!I MISS YOU TWO VERY VERY MUCH!!!

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