First of all...Happy Birthday to Yulia Volkova...who is one half of the band T.A.T.U.She turns 21 today.Yeah,they're starting their world tour soon.Think its in April so yeah.Anyways,how is everyone doing?Good I hope.Went cycling the other day and this time,it did NOT rain so hurray for the lot of us that went.Kinda hot but breezy.We actually cycled all the way till the track ended and I even spotted a grayish iguana...but this was a smaller version tho.Nothing scary abt it.Found a couple of golf balls as well.Went to expo yesterday with Ameily and Hazel.There was a flea market so the lot of us went there.Not much stuff BUT I bought a shirt for $1!!Can you believe it??Hahaha,that was just fucking cheap!Bought a white sleeveless top as well,I love the design.Ameily helped pick it.Yayy!!Took a quiet walk today...around the neighbourhood.Needed to sort out my thoughts...BUT that didn't really work cuz some of it is still there but that's normal.Just wrote 3 poems a couple of minutes ago.And I re-edited my story again.Added in some "deleted" scenes inside so that's a bonus.Personally,I like the edited version,its slightly longer than the other but the flow of the story is still the same...with several minor changes.Just added a bit of spice to it.To those who are or will be lucky enough to read it,you really are LUCKY!!!

I always thought feelings and emotions are the same but after talking and discussing it with Ameily and Hazel,it seems that they are two different things with a slight difference.But it doesn't matter cuz I don't believe in any of those which is both strange and stupid but I just really don't believe in it.Never did...and probably never will.I never rely on ppl cuz in the end,they will just disappoint you BUT I know that there are some of my friends out there that I can rely on...like General and my two brothers.Kor and my lil bro,now I might NOT show or talk about my problems but there are times when I just talk to them.And it helps to talk abt it cuz I'd feel loadz better.Its very RARE for me to open up and when I do,consider yourself lucky.I'm a tough nut and it does take a bit of a good knock before I open up BUT when you/someone does it,be prepared.Cuz either I will fess up or blow.So its like taking a gamble but I do try to open up despite the fact it only happens on RARE occasions.Walking helps but keeping everything inside is seriously unhealthly but I've been doing it as long as I could remember.I abhore crying,I really do.Ask anyone around me and they will tell you the same.I always believed girls should be the "emotional type" and the guys are the "stronger type" but I guess it isn't the case for me as its the direct opposite.

Now that my story is done,either I'm gonna do a sequel OR a new story altogether.What do you guys think?I think I should stick to one story but then again,I have a tendency to abandon one story and suddenly do another new one that is completely unrelated to the previous one.Bad bad habit of mine lol.But when inspiration strikes...I will keep going and going until I make sure the story is finished.Been having dreams again...some weird and some "WTF". It really is strange.Its like the subconscious mind are trying to tell us something but they tell or relate it to us thru words or things.My recent dream I had was swimming in a random pool and someone giving me a maroon and gray shirts.Weird I know but that was how it was.I even dreamt of my lil bro...he was a RACECAR DRIVER!!You know...like those Kimi Raikkonen or Michael Schumacher.How cool is that?!Hahaha...why wasn't I driving??Ahahaha but still cool,I was like his personal manager or something lol but still...it was wicked!!

Old chum Loren emailed a few days ago.It was soooooooo nice to talk to her again,I really do miss our long lengthy funny chats.But she's been busy with uni and so am I but we have started emailing and talking...so that's fun fun.I promise to come visit Perth some day..I really DO wanna go!!!Miss ya gorgeous!!

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My lil bro's gone...he has finally left for australia last night.And even tho I am sad for him leaving,I will see him again.He has my full support in anything he does in life.Show the world your talent lil bro,you ROCK!!!I gave him a HOTWHEELS car,an egyptian bookmark and a poem which I composed specially for him.I really do love him alot,he was always there for me and I really value him and treasure the friendship we have.Love ya always lil bro...and don't you EVER forget that.On to better and brighter things,I have finished my story...yep yep,the latest one that I have been writing for a wee while now.I am so glad its all done cuz usually,I have this very bad habit of NOT finishing any of the stories I wrote.So this is a big accomplishment for me as its the FIRST in many that is actually finished...a story that has an ending and not left hanging.You see,I got inspired to write this fic after listening to this particular band.As I was listening to them and the songs,the idea suddenly just appeared inside my head!!And I was like, "Why not?" So yea,I gave it a go,wrote and actually finished it.So I am damn proud of it.A sequel is in the process,nothing much yet BUT I have some rough ideas and sketches on what it shall be.But I might do a shocking turn in the next...or maybe not but you have been warned!And pray that the sequel too will get an ending.Ha!I simply LOVE writing,its so easy and its what I love doing.It drives me!Its MY passion!!Wrote another poem yesterday,seems the poetry mood is here cuz I just wrote another again.Another reason why I write is cuz I suck at talking,especially when it comes to expressing myself.Words are so much easier for me.

Sayang says we'd be getting our diploma certs next month at the latest.Well,I hope so cuz I really can't bloody wait to get it!!!Whooooohoooo!!!School's gonna be starting in 2 months time and I can't wait for that either!New friends...new term...new beginnings!!!Went cycling the other day with kor,my lil brother,Ameily and the General.It was wicked but it had to BLOODY rain but thank goodness the rain wasn't that heavy,just slight drizzling.We cycled quite a distance and honestly,that was the FIRST time I cycled THAT far!!And to top it all,I was back at the same old neighbourhood that I grew up in!It was amazing,there were many changes of course but still,it was like...fond memories.I did most of my growing up there and even tho I hardly visited the beach,it was nice to go there every now and then.My weird dreams are back,I dunno what they are trying to tell me but the most freaky one has got to be the one where this random person kept telling me these 3 words over and over again.Its just weird.Thursday's my Basic Theory test,wish me luck everyone!!I really cannot wait to get my license...driving...whoa whoa whoa...its gonna be really wicked!!I think me and Ameily are thinking of living in Glasgow,which is really a great city cuz its the countryside(Katie Leung of Harry Potter fame!)but its gonna be tonnes far from London but very nearby Edinburgh.Actually,living IN London is fine with me but that's like living where I am so beats the purpose actually.So,most probably we'd be living somewhere else.I really can't wait when we actually fly there.Its gonna be sad leaving everyone here cuz we'd be gone for abt 3 or 4 years.BUT we will come back,that's a promise.

I've been tagged by my lil sis to do this and do it I shall.

- Post 5 random/weird stuff about yourself.

1) I am constantly hungry but never gains a single weight

2) Jumped off a second floor once on a dare

3) I write alot but never lets anyone see any of my works

4) Had my first kiss when I was 12

5) Never been in love (don't believe in it)

And for the finale...to my lil bro out there!!!I wrote this poem SPECIALLY for you.Missing and Loving you always!!

He has finally left

And left me all alone

How will things go?

Now that he is gone

Please stay safe

For you are my brother

Please be happy

For you are my star

Even though he is far

He will always be kept close to my heart

Even though I cry

He will not know my tears

As we said goodbyes

I know that is not the end

As we parted ways

I know we are still forever friends

Never judged nor disrespectful

He was always very helpful

Loving him for who he was

He is the best brother I had