MERRY XMAS EVERYONE!!!Hope everyone had a great day spend with your loved ones.I was sick on xmas,how nice but I'm loadzzz better now!Anyways,my GP is FINALLY done and handed in!!!Wheeeeyahhh!!Printer is out,got to have it repaired or simply get another.The Chronicles of Narnia :The Lion,The Witch And The Wardrobe has finally opened,can't wait to go see it.Its gonna be really wicked,gonna be seeing it soon.Whoooozaahhh!!!Just a few more days still the new year which is both sad and happy.I'm a tad sad cuz the year ended a wee bit too soon and its like,I dunno...I felt like I didn't have much time on my side and well it just sorta...whizzed past.Its good cuz hey with the new year getting itself ready to be ushered in,hopefully things will be better and not go as haywire as it did before.But no one can predict the future or what its gonna hold for me or anyone of us out there BUT I am gonna hope for the best.Got an elk and some really yummy chocolates from ILLKAMAN!!!Yayyyyy I LOVE IT!!!Thank you my poopylicious baibee...I LOVE YOU!!!!The elk is soooooo cute!!!Wheeee and kor got me my xmas gift as well,some stuff from body shop.Thanks kor,you're the best!!Mum's got me an awesome spankin' new CRUMPLER bag...how WICKED is THAT!??! Whooooooohooo!!ITS BLOODY BRILLIANT!!!

Anyone else owe me xmas gifts??Bwahahaha!!!Just kidding...!!Since xmas was over,it was Chris birthday a few days ago and I hope he had a fab day!!CHRIS!!I won't mention his full name as he absolutely thinks its horrid,well I think its nice.I miss you,get online you prat,we have tonnes to catch up on!!I haven't got any mood to start on any one of my stories.Yep yep,just don't seem on doing any of em for the time being but I'll never know,I can even surprise myself and write something out.Even though I've already submitted my GP,don't have the mood to write anything...YET!!When I start writing,its just non-stop and when I don't,its boring.It's fantastic and frustrating at the same time.I love it when I start writing cuz everything just comes tumbling out and out and when I hit block,I can't bleeding get past it!Aaarrghhh...its VERY VERY annoying.My lil bro is back,yea...safe and sound.It was Ameily's birthday and we already got her birthday pressie,hope she likes it and goes ballistic!Soz gorgeous but I can't tell ya what it is,just gotta wait and see this Friday!!Whooozahh!!Sent my youngest kitty to the vet,dunno what's wrong with her,hopefully with the medicine the vet gave,she'll be loadzzz better.Tis been raining a lot this month,monsoon season yea.And its gonna go back to the usual when its blimey hot,well its always hot here,no diff.But that's gonna change when me and Ameily live in England a couple of years down the road.Whoooooozahhh,that's gonna be really wicked...scary but wicked.To those of our matez(whom we know!)who wanna head over there and need a place to crash(not literally mind yea!)our door is open for ya guys!!

I don't see why ppl have to lie,cheat or even betray friends.I just don't see a damn point or logic in doing those mentioned above.Its just stupid.Well,I'm sure everyone has lied before in the life and its just,well second nature but just cuz we can tell white lies here and there(and not get caught)but that doesn't condone to lie all the way,its just ridiculous.Cheating...well,can't say I've been there BUT I don't want to be there so yea.Betraying a friend?Whoa whoa whoa,now that's something I take S-E-R-I-O-U-S-L-Y.I've experienced it first-hand and its something I hope no one goes thru.Not only does it bloody fucking hurt but you get to see the dark side of the other person,another side of her/him.I wished I didn't see what I did,I wished I could erase the words we said to each other...and I wished we could be back as we were...but we can't.And in some ways,I'm glad.Things happen for a reason,good or bad,that's just life and god's way of telling us,"Be strong.You passed the test,you had to fall.Get up and be strong.There are more tests ahead for you,you will rise up to the challenges of life and defeat it."So yea,even though I didn't like how it ended,it happened how it happened and it couldn't have happened any other way.Gotta accept it,I had to cuz life still goes on,it doesn't end.We may not like how it happened and we are powerless to stop change.I hope no one goes thru a betrayal,its one of the hardest and painful things to forgot(even more painful reliving the memories)and though I readily admit I don't like feeling,sometimes you just...have to.Yea,I have my moments.Hey,don't look surprised,everyone feels,that's just being human.Its normal.Like I said,I don't like being too in touch with my emotions but I am...I do,I just don't like the idea of showing it.Ask anyone around me and they'll tell you the same.I envy ppl who can feel and are capable of of showing it,I really do.For me,its just really......well uncomfortable.

xxx

My dearest Lynnette or "Cho Chang" as she is affectionately known as tagged me and asked me to do this random survey and I did.My lovely payung also asked me to update so here I am!!Changed my layout,nicer and better right?Haven't blogged for a while,so sorry.I wanna go see AEON FLUX!!!They say its pretty gooood and its CHARLIZE THERON dudes....how cool is that?But I still prefer my Jennifer Garner lol.Missing my lil bro,I really do.You never know how much a person may mean to you unless they are gone.Well,I agree.And I miss my fantastic brother,come back soon and safely!!If and when I do leave for England,I am really gonna miss ALL my friends here.Yesterday,the usual "gang" was out.We borrowed General's car for the day.It was me,my kor,Ameily,General,Darth Hazel and Hurricane Mumu and we reall had fun.We went to Marina Bay and played the arcades there.I actualled PARA-PARA again...hahaha!!Good workout and really fun but I wouldn't do it again!!!Eeeep!!Its embarassing!!Went to a KFC drive-thru at Kallang and had a mini picnic at the carpark of the Singapore Indoor Stadium.Then we were off to fetch my sister from her workplace and then head back home.My awesome Ameily printed me a Viktor Krum picture and also a collage of my wonderful Miss Garner.She has already given birth to a ickle baby girl and named her Violet Ann Affleck.Speaking of this,I stumbled onto a website that actually wants to stop Ben Affleck,like in the literally sense which I personally think is stupid cuz how do you actually stop a person??I mean,its just too damn silly.I might NOT like Ben but to stop him...well how do you do that?Mum and sis finally watched GOF and know the reason WHY I am so completely infatuated with Bulgarian Quidditch Star Seeker Viktor Krum!!!!

Had a dream when I got beaten up...yea no kidding.Don't know who the cuplrits were but it left me,in the dream,with a cut just hovering nearby my left eye.Then last night,had a dream abt ppl coming up to me,asking for my autographs.It a great feeling to know that there are ppl out there who wants my autograph.I hope to turn that dream into reality.I want to write,I wanna be a writer.I wanna show the world my works...and share my creativity and imagination.I jusr LURRVE writing,I love how it strings everything up!"Remember,amateurs built the Arc while professionals built the TITANIC."That's VERY true!I think the first step for me is to show my friends and those around me my stories.It might be easy to some but for me...its a daunting task for me cuz I simply do NOT like showing my works to ppl.Period!!On TV,there was an interview with a budding writer.I didn't stick around to watch it,its depressing.But my sister said I can do it,she wants me to press on and not give up(which I will never do)I have the dream,the passion and knack for writing.I don't care abt what ppl,I'm still gonna write anyways.HA!So whatever ppl have to say,I really couldn't care less.All that's left is to work on my creativity and show ppl my stories.As it is,I got horrible marks for my essay scriptwriting(even though it was pair work)That's the downside of writing,the bloody rejection!!Aaarrghhh!!But never fret,I shall learn from what I did wrong and stand up tall with my chin held up high.Hung out at mumu's place last week.Me,my kor,General,Queen Mirah and Lady Ameily went and we had a SPLENDID time!!!Ordered pizza,sung our lungs and hearts out to Spice Girls,BSB and all those 90's songs.I really miss those good old times,its just...time really does fly by very fast.And now,its gonna be the end of the year already.I think I better go write down some new year resolutions.Had a sudden burst of inspiration to my new story...whooohoo!!Written down all the ideas inside my "sacred book."I've been working on the Nadia story as well.So far,I've got over 20,000 words,still gonna work on it and add more.I think its too little lol but my friends say thats ALOT!!!Is it??LoL!Ameily was at my place two days ago and I showed her my ELEKTRA story which has over 53,000 words and she just looked at me and said, "Finish it Lynn!!You better do or else..." Whoops!!But I shall and I will dearest Ameily...I will,that's a promise,to finish it.I'm trying to hit the 100,000 words mark.Its a story that is almost a year old and still in the making.Started writing it in Jan and now its Dec,so yea,almost a year.

I miss ALL my friends,I really do.Now that school is over,I hardly see them except the ones I am close with.Just confessed to Vic that I miss to her...wahahaha!!!Yea yea I do,is that wrong?And she's gotten a job and I am happy for her.Everyone's like going separate ways already,its begun.Well,no one can stop change,not even me.But no matter where we go and how far we are,we will always carry a part of each other.Tomorrow,the "gang" will be going out,we're gonna be having lunch and just have fun like we normally we do.Been saving up to get my ALIAS or SVU DVDs,I really love those shows...very real.Got some clips of SVU online,really cool!!I love em!!Wrote another poem last week,just felt like writing one.

xxx