Sorry for the late update,been really busy with school and life.FINALLY!!!One of my presentations is over and two of my assignments have been handed up,one is due tomorow!I can't wait to get it over and done with.Its de-stressing time after class tomorrow with my usual gang!!Wheeeeee!!!The group just keeps getting bigger and bigger...hahaha and its just amazing really.I LOVE EM ALL!!!You lotzzz are such a hilarious bunch!!And they even have new nicknames!!Bwahahaha!!Courtesy of moi...hehehe,I just LOVE bloopers,its so fun!Try it!!Last week was Yenny's birthday...wasn't easy finding her b'day pressie but we managed to source two out...yayy!! *does the Yenny Pose* A few days ago was my lil bro's birthday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!Me and the gang will be getting ur present soonish...I PROMISE!!Kor was here just now to get the photos we took today at presentation...we were simply cam whoring again but its just sooo much fun,esp with the gang being so comical!!Presentation went smoothly and I am very proud of it and my group!!Yenny has a new "dance" and I'm addicted to one of this game Emily introduced me to a few days ago.Its called HALLOWEEN MEENIES and they ARE mean!!!Hahaha!!Well not literally but you get hooked onto the game very fast!!Even bear dudu got hooked like me,just like moi!So far,my highest mark was abt 15,000 points.Been chilling with emily,sarah,lynnette and the rest alot more now,which is great cuz we didn't like bonded before(we weren't that close)but we do now!!I just found another HARRY POTTER fanatic...in emily!!!Wheeeeee!!!I can't wait to dress up like a wizard...VIKTOR KRUM!!!!Mine mine MINEEEE!!!!Its gonne be awesome and we'll organize a MINI HOGWARTS DAY!!!Its gonna be as Ron would say "WICKED!!".Stanislav Ianevski is such a HOTTIE!!!Played the war game with kor and General yesterday...kor and me got to field marshall while General didn't,he got until captain but hey,you got a high ranking.Don't give up,plenty of other days for you be field marshall like us!Went to school with Larry,Sarah,Nui,Cable and my kor today.Larry drove us to school and I simple love the feeling of coming to school in a car,really I do.It just gives you this sense of superiority.I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY LICENSE!!!!Aarrgghhh!!!I WANT IT!!! *swears Slovak and Finnish* When I DO get it...hahahaha...look out people!!Here I come!!!It would be one of the proudest moment of my life!!Emily borrowed me her POA DVD,I can't wait to watch that...need to get this assignment handed in first before I can relax a wee bit before starting on my scriptwriting.Should I use my Nadia story?But its not even written finished yet,ALL my stories I write never get an ending.But this Nadia one,I have a good feeling abt it but whatever comes next...shootzz...wouldnt wanna think of it as of yet.I'm thinking of doing another Boston Public story.What do you guys thinks?Or maybe I'll just come up with something else?I have a couple more ideas inside my head,let's see how it goes.

Speaking of writing,what my sister told me today at dinner was really true.In order to take the first step to writing,one must be able to allow others to read what we have written cuz what we have written comes from the very depths of our heart and soul.It is not lying,it is not hiding.We have to bare our soul and expose our deepest vunerabilities to others.In order for a writer to write,he or she must have the courage to show others their dreams and are willing to make a fool out of themselves.Then and only then are we/you making one step to fulfilling your dream as a writer.Its true cuz writing is abt doing your best,we cannot fake ourselves out of it.I hope to become a writer some day,it would be really cool to see people reading my books.I know it takes alot of hard work but with determination and courage,nothing is impossible.One of the main reason why I write is because I love writing,I love how it can use simple words and transform it into something so powerful and meaningful that it can touch and soften even the hardest hearts.I just suck at talking,I really do but when it comes to writing,it just comes naturally to me.Ideas come to me at really random times and sometimes,I bring it into my sub-conscious mind.The other main reason why I love writing so much is that it helps me express myself.Its just another way for me to "talk".I don't confide much in those around me alot as I do have a habit of bottling everything inside which is NOT good or healthy.I just keep hiding and keeping and shutting away until one day,I know its gonna go BOOOOOM!!!

I don't believe in burdening ppl with my problems,its just not me.I know I can count on my friends to be always there for me and vice versa but when something troubles me,its hard to get me out of that "mode".I've been told I'm way too stubborn for my own good and have a BIG ego(yes payungku,I know I do!)But I am NOT giving in.I might miss her but it doesn't change anything.Maybe...just maybe I could forgive her but that's just a very slim chance of happening.Reading Sarah's blog the other day,she was talking abt friendship woes and stuff.Well I can safely say that I've been in that spot before and its not a very nice seat.I had a great friend once...we were close friends and wherever we went,we were practically inseparable until one day...the cracks started showing and everything fell apart.It was then when I realized what I THOUGHT I had...I never actually did have and whatever happened next was a blur cuz the once great close friends are now two complete strangers.We don't even talk anymore and quite honestly,I don't care.Or maybe I do??I think my friends will know that answer lol.She has her life and I have my own,whatever happens...happens.I still have the memories and I know those will NEVER go away.I'd cherish them cuz good memories are hard to forget...but so is the betrayal of a friend.

Mirah almost pushed me into the drain the other day,lucky I didn't fall...if not...so the unglamourous!!Hahahaha!!!Kor qualified for the bowling finals...yayyy!!!!Me and the rest of the gang will be coming down to Marina to root and cheer him on this sunday!!!Woooooooooo!!!!

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I PASSED MY EXAMS!!!!Whoooooooohooooo!!!!!Finally I've gotten the results and I'M STOKED!!!On another note...the bbq was a SUCCESS!!!!Thank YOU(u know who you are!!)to those who came,it went brilliantly.The food was deliciously yummy and there was a bottle of COKE for me!!Yayyy!!!I went off coke for 18 days(thats a bloody record for me!)and during the bbq,I treated myself to a bottle of it.Hahaha...whoooo but now I've gone off it and let's see how I'll last...maybe hopefully till the end of fasting month.Larry,next time join us yea?And Rebecca darling,you too!!The bbq was really really wicked.Me,my kor,Constantine and General were the first to arrive at Larry's place.We set up everything and when the food came,everyone started to help cook the food.After arriving at our destination,the next VIP to arrive was Mumuw and then followed by Nui,Yenny and the last was Cable!!The food was alot but we managed to finish em.Cherly darling joined us for a while,just chilling.Yenny pushed me into the pool...hahaha!!The grandma's beehoon,chicken satay and kor's marinated chicken were the best food there I think but hey,all the food there was YUMMY!!!Went home at around 5 ish and got home around 6 ish.Even tho I was so tired and sleepy,the bbq was really fun and enjoyed it throughly.Can't wait for another!!I already have another outing again in mind you lotzzz,not to worry and this time,I'm gonna ask Sarah(balloon babe!)Lynnette and Cheryl along!!Was chilling with them just now in class and we had a great laugh together,Sarah's got a new nickname already...awww poor her.Now,I've gotta crack my head for Lynnette's and Cherly's.I think we were laughing the loudest in class,but it was just so so hilarious!Watch out SIA...we have Sarah Airlines coming up!!Hahahaha!!!ALIAS was awesome!!!Jen Garner kicked ass with her sister by her side and is very protective her.Nadia kicked good arse too and for the first time,she meets her mother and its just a bittersweet moment.Syd looked happy when she saw their mother embrace Nadia.But its only a couple more episodes before season 5 ends. I don't know if Nadia is gonna be onboard for season 6.I hope she is and Miss Jen Garner as well.

As the good news keeps rolling,we have recently shifted to our new Unicampus which is located at Queenstown.Met up with the gang and went to school together.Been raining heavily these past few days.Mum got me my early 21st birthday pressie last week.SONY ERICSSON k750i!!Yayyyy!!! *jumps around in excitement* Thank you loadzzzzz mum for the early gift...I SIMPLY LOVE IT!!!Thank you mum,you are the greatest!!!!!I can't wait to make my home in England and you can come with me!!!Wheeee!!!Been hanging out and talking more with my other classmates like Sarah,Lynnette,Cherly and Emily which is great cuz I wasn't that close with them and now,everything is going really well.And they all are such a funny bunch.Tomorrow is another day,so I'm not sure what will they or us be up to,random fun and jokes buzzing around is my guess.Played the war game with kor and General yesterday and we had tonnes of fun!!!Kor got to field marshall and I got to Major and General was second left I think.Projects projects and more projects are due....damn it,I better get started on all of em and that scriptwriting...aarrrghhh!!I have some plots in my head but to go abt doing it,now that's a different thing altogether.

Was at dhoby ghaut with kor,Constantine and General a couple of days ago.Kor was in the toilet and so was my lil bro I think when me and General saw Denise Keller,going down the escalator,on the fone and in a rush.She was wearing shades but we couldn't help looking at her and I think she must have realized it and smiled at us.DAMN!!!She's prewty in person and uber tall too.But I still love my Miss Garner.I wanna go see Corpse Bride...I better go ask the rest and hopefully next week or this weekend we'll be able to watch it.No free movie tickets again?Bwahahaha!!My wife is off on a school trip and yesterday was Mr Ilkka's birthday...so HAPPY DUCKY BIRTHDAY MY ILKKAMAN!!! *throws confetti* Hope you have a grand day with ur family,friends and of course don't forget ur ducks and towels!! *grins* I have ur pressie with me but it will probably be sent late as I've got projects and assignments due...so sorry my duckman...but I promise I shall send it off soon!!!I MISS YOU TWOOOO!!!

And wife,thank YOU for all ur advices and listening,it means a ducky lotzz to me and even tho I can be very stubborn and as some of my friends say,"got a big pride and ego",I can try to be more "human" or "forgiving" and show compassion but that doesn't mean I have to make the first move cuz I still won't.But I'm still unforgiving.I just cannot let go and do what needs to be done.I will not budge nor will I give in.I stand by what I say,I will NOT submit.Enough is enough...but I can try(I've always believed hope never dies)but right now,silence and ignorance works for us.

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