I FINISHED THE WAR GAME WITH KOR!!!Squeeeeeeee!!!!BOOYAH!!!You know how many times we had to play that game???Its frustrating I tell you but hey I went up from Major to something loadzzz higher.Kor was Field Marshall and he keeps getting extra life...cheh!!We couldn't work as a team with my lil brother,General,kor and me played cuz we'll usually screw it up,its like not organized and it comes out a complete mess.Then we treated ourselves to "free drinks" redeemed from the TimeZone counter.I haven't had coke for 8 days(not the druggie but the soda one)Gosh,that's gotta be like a bloody record for me,the longest I went without coke was 6 days on one time and the other was 10.Miracle isn't it?Me not having a SINGLE coke at all,bwahahaha,its all thanks to my wonderful friends who are not only amazing but caring and annoying(but I still love em to bits and bits!!)Yayyyy...maybe it won't be long till I kick my coke addiction...BUT knowing me,I don't think I want to kick it just yet,I still love the caffeine way too much.Chilled at Bugis just now with kor and my dearest payung,played drums...love that game,good way to de-stress.Was at Dhoby Ghaut X-Square a few days ago with my kor,General and Constantine.Played KungFu Chaos and BurnOut Revenge,the latest of the BurnOut games and it was kinda tough.Played Def-Jam...that game...I LOVE IT!!You can kick,punch and do whatever to your opponent.It feels so real,like you are actually whooping that person's arse.Didn't play much games as I did before,esp DOA 2.Brings back memories that game...hahaha...someone would thrash my ass upside down,never did win.Even if I did,only just a couple of rounds.Never did play the fight night game with YOU(yes you!)cuz I know I''m terrible at it.But you lost to me in BurnOut 3!!Yea well those were the good old memories and I'm grateful to you for giving and creating them.

My latest craze in music is TRUST COMPANY,its got pretty good songs,like the "The War Is Over" and "Silently" songs,can sorta relate to them and they are my fav at the mo.Go and have a listen,I was first introduced to them thru my sister's friend.Mike Shinoda's hip-hop/rap song "Remember The Name" is pretty good,esp. the chorus part.Rebecca is so cute lah...hahaha,I love to annoy her,she is my latest "victim"!!Bwahaha...poor darling,well tomorrow I'm gonna hug you like there is no tomorrow and annoy you. *innocent grin* The Nadia story is progressing well and its safe to say that its going into the direction I want it to go and again,I hope I can finish this cuz all my previous stories never get an ending...how sad.Even my ELEKTRA story is more than halfway done but its left hanging.Its been 9 months in the making and I have a feeling it will take me a loooooong time to actually finish it.Talked to wife Mich yesterday and thank you for listening to my blabbering,I love ya loadzzz!!!DUCKS RULE!(Don't even ask lol!)Didnt see Ilkka tho,I hope he is feeling much better than I am.My two baibees...I love and miss you two very ducky much!!And since when I am the CURRY CHILLI ILAMA!!?!?Bwahahahaha!!!!Wife!!!! *wags finger*

Life is such a burden sometimes,putting all the load or majority of em on my shoulders.Not that I'm complaining cuz with each experience,it helps me grow thru life.But hey...nothing is perfect and everything happens for a reason,its not...never random.I found this quote off the net, "If you fail and feel the pain,that is a good sign.It means you are given more chances to try again.It also means you are human." Human?I can be quite unforgiving,super cold,cynical with a defence mechanism built around and inside me that rarely drops.But whatever it is,I still am human.I try not to let my emotions govern my mind and actions but sometimes its hard but I don't care.I'm just someone with a complicated life.Things are like a rollercoaster now and I'm riding it.Let's hope we get a happy landing or ending yea?But I love all my friends very much,they know who they are.They are a great bunch to chill and have fun,the Sentosa trip was a good example.Can't wait for the next outing you lotzzz and next time...UNLEASH ALL YOUR MADNESS LOL LOL!!!

I've set my sights on another place in England...instead of moving and living in Hertsfordshire,how abt Birmingham??Hahaha,I better decide which city or town I would be living in when I finish my degree.I'm gonna move there and I can't wait,its gonna be wicked!!So what do you guys think?Herts or Birmingham??Oh yea...almost forgot,its Tom Felton's 18th birthday today so...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!Keep on playing Draco Malfoy...you rock at it!!

Had the BEST time chilling with my new friends at Sentosa and Changi,it was just awesome.We were supposed to go other places but we spend like pratically half the day at Sentosa!You lotzzz are just amazing,such a funny lot.I love each and everyone of you!!!We took tonnes and tonnes of pics but I think that wasn't even near enough hahaha.Got a free ride on the Carlsberg Tower(my dearest payung works there)the view from inside it was simply GORGEOUS!!!Even tho I didn't like the bloody height but it was cool,as long as it wasn't open air.Took the LUGE with the gang and it was WICKED!!!!I LOVED IT!!!I managed to get the hang of it but payung took off,leaving me with my lil bro but of course we caught up to her.Then we pulled over and waited for General and Tomato before we zoomed off.Yenny looked so cute driving,she's just so comical...right Yenny? *strikes a pose* Didnt use the brakes...bwahahaha,I'm such a THRILL-SEEKER and I LOVE IT!!I also got to snap a pic with a python...yessssss....a python.Mmmmm...huuuuge snake...and I got to kissed it!!Tomato and me were the only ones brave enough to kiss its head and it was all the while looking at us...WICKED!!!

Assignments are due...damn it,we have to do scriptwriting.Aaarrgghhh!! *bangs head on the table* That ain't bleeding easy!!!Anyways,I have finally started on my NADIA story and so far its going great...13 pages and counting.HELL YEAH!!!Jennifer Garner didn't win an Emmy *sniff sniff* but hey she was glowing and she came looking all oh so PREWTY!!Tomorrow is ALIAS but there ain't no Boston Public no more...shucks.Went to my lil brother's place about a week ago to play wrestling...bwahahaha...you tapped out lil bro...to the ankle lock!!Haven't played GTA and Need For Speed Underground for ages.Had a dream abt Carmen Torres,hahahaha!!!Good dream...and I ain't telling!!! *lips are sealed* Found more new rock/punk bands like Surfjan Stevens and Hard-Fi.I just love discovering new bands.Managed to get hold of Mike Shinoda's latest songs from his band "Fort Minor" and Chester Bennington's solo songs,not bad really.Wrote a poem yesterday and I'm really proud of this one,will put it up for you lot to see.Goblet of Fire is gonna be opening soon,I can't wait for that,watched the hi-res trailer and it's gonna be really really good...I can tell.Have a date with my "gang" to watch Corpse Bride,Rebecca darling...you are more than welcome to come join us if you want!Was chilling with her after class,had lunch together with Jane Molly Wolly,General,my lil bro,my kor,Jeff,Ollie and Cable.Rebecca is one great,nice and cool babe!!

Someone from my past came back....well technically actually.A good bubbly friend surprised me by telling what I did or didn't know,gives me a different perspective view altogether.Well I just couldn't be bothered,I really don't but I know I can't just ignore and pretend it never happened or my past never existed cuz running away from it will only make things worse.I need to face it and face it it I will.If that person wanna talk,make the first move...I'm not going to be the one doing it.Like I said,when I don't care,I really don't.When someone's out of my life...they are O-U-T for good.I don't look back and regret because I have none.Things happen to us for a reason,good or bad.Its how we react to them that determines how things will end.Like it or not,a good friend of mine told me that changes are here to stay and they are here.I have this saying, "Don't know,don't care and not bothered".Nothing ends nicely,that's why it ends.I have walked away from a friendship that was never there and since then,everything changed...for the good or for the worse...I'll never know but I have saved myself from anymore heartaches as this is a lesson to be learnt from and learning from it I am.I miss those times but now,they are just mere memories of our once happy times.

I dont understand
Why do you do this?

What have I done?

You took too much

Nothing else matters

Bet you never thought I hated you

Yes I do

I hate you...you taught me how

And I thank you for helping me hate you

I'm never going back to you

You don't deserve a second chance

I have lost everything in you

You betrayed and got me where you wanted

But this is not the end of me

Sooner or later you will learn

You will realize

That you had something good

That you were wrong

That you made the biggest mistake of your life

That you wished you hadn't done what you did

So I'm saying this to you now

The night goes on

It doesn't end and you know it

Have to be strong...have to be brave

A new day has begun...a new chapter

Starting to unwind and unfold

It doesn't matter where it leads

For as the road grows long and the steps are treacherous

I will be ready...I will be okay

You will never win again

All that's left of us were lost memories

Long gone and long forgotten

But you will remember my name

Soon its time to play the game

And it will never be the same

Sorry for the downtime,comp was in ICU for a wee bit too long but its all good now.Its back to its normal self now but all Jen Garner's pics are all gone which means I have to find em all over again.Damn but yeah,I can still get them back...esp the ELEKTRA photos.I love those and of course...the YUM YUM pic!! *drools* Bwahahaha!!Lay off people!!Anyways,let's get in with updates yea.I can't really remember much abt what really went on the past few weeks but I do remember General,Queen Payung,Larry,Cable,my kor and myself going to JB and it was AWESOME!!All of us had loadzzzz fun and happy memories!!!We rented a MPV for the outing and that car turned out to be really comfy and real NICE!!There were soooo many bloopers too and we ALMOST got lost while trying to find our way to the CARREFOUR hypermarket BUT we got there eventually.Our circle of friends have begun to expand yet once more,as we chill more with Yenny,Mumuw,Payung and Larry and they are a wicked bunch...really good company,lots of laughter and smiles.Just today I hung out with them,it just keeps getting better and better everyday.I love all my friends...I love em all,they make life more interesting and entertaining.

Bought General his birthday pressie at JB,wasn't easy finding it but Cable,Payung and me eventually found it,the dude that was serving us reminded and looked like Ash,no kidding!He was kinda cute too lol.Had Cable here the other day with General as well.Grandma was there too last week and she cooked some lean mean wicked food.Went to watch VALIANT with them and my sister at the mall,it was alrite.The lil pigeon was cute and so were the French rats lol,very charming.Went to my lil bro's place yesterday to play PS2...was having a blast playing wrestling.Been watching ALIAS episodes every week dutifully and the story is progressing to the point where Sydney and Nadia will find out that their mother is still alive and not dead as they expected.I hope both of em reprise their respective roles in the next season.If there is no Sydney or Nadia is just kinda boring.Syd's dad might die,I hope he doesn't cuz he still has alot of catching up to do with his daughter.Nadia is getting prettier and prettier as each episode is aired!!But can't deny the fact that she IS pretty so yea,there ya go.But still MY Jen Garner is still number one in my list!!Boston Public rocks as well but there is no Carmen Torres,how sad.Played CS the other day until I got like some random motion sickness...I felt like puking,I really did.It was just a horrible feeling,all eewwy.Suddenly,I'm inspired to do yet another story again and this time its abt NADIA SANTOS.Squeeeee!!!This is my FIRST ever attempt at doing abt her and revolving it around ALIAS but with a touch of my own.The main character in this story will be someone whom I hope is gonna turn out as I expect him to.I already have the sypnosis,all that's left is to start writing.Now that my comp is back to its old self,I'm gonna start on my ELEKTRA story,its been too long since I last touched it or even read it.

I miss Loren...I miss Ilkka...I miss Chris...I miss Jamie...I miss Soph...I miss Saz...I miss Damo...I MISS ALL OF YOU!!! *sniff sniff* Why do you lot have to live overseas and so far?But I'm gonna be going to Scotland one day...and CHRISTOPHER ANTHONY...you better be ready when I come lol,I miss you soooo much!!!And ducky Ilkka...I miss you tooo!!!

xxx