Today is my cousin's birthday.HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY MARK CHOOCH!!I miss you tonnes and tonnes.I can't wait to get back to Melbourne again!!!Luv ya lotzz kouz!!Aarrghhh!!Im so frustrated with the bloody bleeding assignments!! *swears* Nuthing in life gets easier anyways and this is just the beginning.I'm just frustrated really.Bought the HBP and finally finished reading it a couple of days ago and I have to say,this book is LOADZZZ better than the fifth one.In fact,I've never read the 5th book.I just couldn't read through it,it was just too...dark.It's quite a shocking turn really at the end of it but I reckon my fav book of the series has got to be Goblet Of Fire.Speaking of which,the movie is less than four months away till its released worldwide.Went to Siti Nurhaliza concert a few days ago and it ROCKED!!!!SHE ROCKED!!!Whooooohoooo!!!She was just fucking amazing good live!!Her CD's just dont do her justice at all.Managed to get some pics from the concert and even though I didnt really sit near the stage,hearing her was more than enough and plus...I've already been to her house in Pahang.Just a simple house really.Saw Tomato from afar and got home in the wee hours of the morning.Sayang,General and Eugene were at my house just the other day.Did project work before launching ourselves into a picture frenzy!!!Wahahaha!!It was soooo fun!!!Finally have a friendster account,my friends have been bugging me to have one so there you go.

Sudden inspiration struck me yesterday and I just started a new story...AGAIN!!Hahaha,yeah I always have new stories to write but I never can finish my old ones.I havent touch my ELEKTRA story.I'll be starting on it once I have free time.I miss writing it,I went on a roll with it after being inspired tremendously by the movie.And having Jennifer Garner acting as elektra natchios was a HUGE plus!!Went out with mum today to the library and grabbed a drink from Coffee Bean.Mum said that I could get the cellfone that I wanted...YAY!!How cool is that?!?This week is presentation week so more or less I'm gonna be stressed and pressurized a bit...or alot,doesn't matter really.Can't wait to get it over and done with but the formal presentation should be interesting.Got my PC level results as well...and I PASSED!!!!Boooyah!!!Sayang and Eugene passed both subjects but sadly...General and my lil bro didnt do as well as we did.Had a dream abt Nadia Santos(from ALIAS)and all I can say abt the dream is wicked!Hahaha!!Been playing alot of Daytona and that drum game.I love that drum game,its a good game to de-stress and let loose.So far,General showed real talent in playing it while I'm just crappy at it.Hahaha well,give me time and I'll be as good as you!!Friday,we went to X-Box(been a wee while since we last went there)Played DOA 2 with sayang and we won evenly...or almost before I passed the controller to General.I dozed off to sleep after that and woke up hungry haha.

The Bravery is coming on the 5th of august...me wanna go!!!Hmmm,I must ask Tomato and my lil bro if they are going.Pug Jelly has been rather quiet these past few weeks,haven't even seen them around lately.Been listening to alot of Simple Plan and Ben Moody alot these past few days.Found new bands like Life of Agony,The Boxer Rebellion and 7-10 Split.I admit I can be somewhat unpredictable and moody.My temper still does get the better of me at times but I'm STILL trying my best to keep it under control which is no easy feat...but I am trying.I brood alot,another habit/hobby of mine.Its something I do very often.Its a place,like a haven for me to get away or retreat away from the real world,just like a santuary.But I'm FIERCELY loyal to those I love and care for and will defend them to the very end,good or bitter.Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you.

I'm off to watch ELEKTRA.

xxx

Happy birthday my dear TOMATO!!!What I had written in my last post came from the heart...MY heart.I have never said anything so detailed like that before.Everything and everyone is put in my life for a reason...and it's the journey that makes it worthwhile.Life is full of ups and downs,its how you choose to react to them that dertermines how you want your life to be.I want my life to be full of love,happiness,sunshines and laughters(and to share them)but also with a dash of disappointments and failures.That's what life is really all about,to live as if there is no tomorrow and to embrace each day with a smile and forget the past sorrows.As I may never know what or why(abt the reasons)I suppose its god's way of telling me "Deal with it" and emerge out stronger than I was before.I suppose it either makes you strong or weak.I despise weaknesses.I have my flaws which I don't openly and readily admit.I know I have it and it is THAT feeling,that makes me human...and I AM human.No matter how weak you are,you will always find a way to be strong and that is VERY true.This is something new altogether for me.It made me and close friends(you know who you are)so SO much more closer than before,it also has strengthened our bonds of friendships.I would cherish them until the end of time.Thank you all for the friendships you have given me.I will ALWAYS be there for all of you,that is MY promise.I have always been alone throughout most of my life but I know better now that I am not alone anymore.I have a family who cares and loves me unconditionally no matter how much I muck up things up...BUT I also have the most amazing and understanding friends that are always there for me regardless of anything.I find it rather awkward cuz I have been taught to repress my emotions and whatever problems I had or was facing,I would face them alone and whatever the consequences were...I was ready to accept but now...things are gradually changing.Now I am slowly learning and confiding in my closest friends.Once again...to my closest pals...My sayang,General and my lil bro Constantine...thank you for putting up with my horrible unpredictable temper and stubborness but above all,thank YOU for all the things you have done for me.LOVE YA ALL LOADZZZZZZZ!!!!!

Back to the happier side!!Today we went to the arcades today and played daytona!!!Whooohooo!!So much fun!!!!I thrashed sayang's car(I thought it was my bro's car)and she got last I think or second last.She asked who was the driver of the dark blue car and I was like "Oh no!Whoops!" I hit the wrong car!!Hahaha but she thrashed me back accidentally but I didnt mind.I was more concentrating of ramming my brother's car which all of us successfully did!!Poor bro...hey I'm sorry for thrashing ur car,there's always a rematch yea?Eugene Batista was there to join us as well and all of us had loadzzz of fun!!Then we went to BK and ate our lunch there.Sayang got the Von Doom toy and gave it to my lil bro who absolutely loved it!After that,it was off to Forum's Toys 'R' Us to buy some stuff and then chilled at Mac's where we had a LAUGHING good time!!Today was a day filled with so many bloopers!!Hahahahaha!!Made a pact with sayang yesterday that I would NOT touch or buy a single coke while she promised me that she wouldnt smoke until the end of the week.Not a bad deal even tho I can't have any coke but if it makes sayang stop smoking for a while...I'm all for it.And it's a good excuse for me to stop drinking coke for a while.General and Constantine were at my place yesterday and my bro forgot his password to his hotmail account.LoL...well he also has a blog too.Rant all you want in that,cuz that's what its for.Projects and assignments are hell and I can't wait to get it over and done with.

Watched fantastic four on the opening day and it was FUCKING GOOOOD!!!I don't mind going again to watch it,its really WICKED!!!!I like Johnny Storm,he reminds me quite a wee bit of myself...and I love the FLAME ON!!!!!Alias is gonna be later and so will Boston Public,two of my fav shows.Just an excuse to see Jen Garner kick ARSE!!I miss watching Criminal Intent and Special Victims.And lastly...4 more days till the release of the sixth HP book!!!

xxx

You know when ppl say some things that happen in life is meant as a lesson to be learnt and that it will change us in little or big ways?Well I believe that.Some things in life needs to be lived to be understood.Something happened to me,well not indirectly but it did affect me and thru that,it brought me and my friends closer than never before.And in some ways,Im glad it did cuz it made me and sayang sit down and talk...REALLY talk and bond.Talking with another person is something...BUT sharing with them a part of your personal life is an entirely different thing and that was happened.Sharing views and opinions and understanding one another is a good thing,it helps us establish our friendship,making it stronger than it was before.It also helps that we put aside our differences and come together to help a friend in need.I would gladly help ANY friend of mine who is in trouble...esp my closest friends.You know who you are,I have ur back...always have and always will.Even with my brother Constantine the Spartacus,General,Eugene Batista and Syed...it made us sit down and just...talk.Had a minor rift with a close friend and we almost bit each other's head off.But we sorted it out and apologized to one another so all's good.I hate fighting with friends,esp the ones that I deem as my very close friends.Call me protective and fiercely loyal but that's me.Even if I dont take things seriously most of the time..BUT when I do,then you can tell the HUGE difference.I love to joke around and pull pranks,I love to make my friends and people smile and laugh,its a rewarding experience.Im such a hot-tempered and stubborn person,anyone who knows me will tell you the same.I try not to let that get in the way but sometimes its just hard to stay in control and at times,I'll just snap.I used to snap alot but as I grow older,its slowly ebbing away.Its still there,I dont think it will fully go away but hopefully most of it will.But it makes us human,all emotions we feel makes us feel our humanity.Rage and hatred are two very strong forces and when coupled together,they can produce something dangerous and if used wrongly,bad things happen.Dont let it control you,cuz its hard to get urself back and then whatever happens...you wish it never did.Its something that eats you up slowly from the inside and it hurts.Its not a good feeling either and bottling up isnt a good choice.I tend to bottle my feelings and thoughts.Everyday its a struggle and everyday its a tiring battle.I do NOT burden my family and friends with my problems.Everyone has their own troubles...I learnt long ago not to burden ppl with my troubles.

I brood alot,thats one of my fav habits.It lets me just shut off from the world around me and just enter a world that's solely meant for me.I love it there,everything is just...right.So when I go into that mode,its impossible to get me out so dont even try it.I'll get out on my own time.I like to think alot as well,its something I like doing cuz it helps me sort out my thoughts abt everything that happens to me in life.Tho I question it,I often wonder why certain things happen to me but like the saying goes, "Some things need to be lived in order to be understood"...and when life throws something,take it in stride.Life is unpredictable,it's full of ups and downs.Live as each day comes and to the fullest and happiest with family and friends,that's the best medicine for when life gets you down,think of the ppl who threw happy times and memories at you and realize that there ARE people out there who care,love and appreciate us.It might not be openly said or done but its felt...esp by the heart.

On a more brighter note,I went to my uncle's place(the ONLY uncle that I love visting and annoying)and then off to visit my other uncle at the hospital.After that was done,it was off to Parkway Parade for SHOPPING!!!Whoooohooo!!!That place brings back memories,good old memories.Hahaha...I used to hang out there alot with my friends after school.It was "THE" place to be before they started renovating and then I changed school and never visited there since.Mum bought me a pair of MANGO jeans at a very good reasonable price!!!I love that jeans,I think its gonna be my favourite jeans!!I love it!!!!Wife Mich is coming soon and I cant wait!!!!Wahhhhhooooooo!!!!And I'm gonna be there to greet her at the airport!!Sorry in advance if me looks sleepy!!!Ilkkaman...you MUST come as well!!!Come see the singapore ducks!!Oooo its gonna be a DUCKY time when mich comes here!!!!!!!!And the HBP book is gonna be out soon too!!! *rubs hands gleefully* I'm gonna get a copy of it and READ it this time!!

xxx