Mwahahaha!!!!!Im BACK!!!!Yay!!Long absence ayy?Anyways,had a nice loooong chat with my two wicked friends...Mich and Ilkka.Love ya guys!!Almost fainted yesterday,was fighting in out of the darkness and i coudlnt walk properly.Sis had to help,i almost passed out but i didnt,somehow i managed to stay awake.Damn!!Anyways,was out today with sis and her friend,Cynthia.Nice chick.Went to library to get a book for mum.Got my birthday pressies from MY adam on Monday.Yeeeeeehaaa!!!I got a pair of thongs,awesome wristband that says "GOLF PUNK" and a trucker cap!!!I love the wristband,its really cool!!LUV YA LOADZZ MY ADAM!! :) Had my first coke in 4 days today tho im still craving for more.Arrrghh!!COKE COKE COKE!!!I think i'll go ask dad to get me some from Malaysia.Much cheaper there.I did some writing on my story,did a couple of scenes.My heroin has finally gotten herself a name!!Yay!!Now its just a second name for her that i have to thump my head to get. *groans* LinkinPark & JZ's new collaboration has hit the shelves tho i dont think im getting it.Its too much of a Hip Hip in it and i dont listen to any of those kinds of music.Im strictly punk punk punk all the way!!

Im gonna have some waffles tomorrow...yummylicious waffles!!! *drools* Got some Gregorian songs off the net.I say thats really church-like but when i listen to them,i can imagine the scenes in my head for different parts of my story.Fascinating isnt it?How our mind can come up random and creative ideas at the oddest times?I came out with mine in the middle of the night when i was really very angry.So instead of blowing up,i channelled them to my writing.Ive received MY adam's story last night and ive more than halfway through editing it.Im having soooo much fun hehe.I think one my strongest point in writing is the descriptive part.I have to listen to more of LP's Meteora songs.And i even wrote some poems that i shared with Mich who said it was beautiful...but sad.And Mich...Thank YOU for being such a wonderful and amazing friend!!And Ilkka...you rock!!You are the BEST Finn that i ever knew and thank YOU and Mich for ur friendships!! :D I luv you guys!!

Im not very good with my emotions,that i'll admit but i wont wear it on my sleeves.A friend told me that the first 7 years of a kid's life is what they will become in years to come.I think thats true,look what ive grew up to be...but i cant help but blame myself.I dont show my emotions,i dont tell anyone what goes on inside my head(thats really personal!!)but i want them to understand...some do and some dont.And it hurts when people areound me dont.Thats why most of the time,im just misunderstood and sometimes the silence is much better suited for me.Im very famaliar with my anger emotion,thats one that been used loadzz of times.I read this book from a library that said,

"The frightening,intense explosion we call rage may be made out of layers of withheld anger that was never felt,processed and understood.Anger had no where to go,no one who cared,no one who would listen.When anger is forced down,it acquires a life of its own.It is no longer about anything but itself.It doesnt care for anyone but itself and rage is surpressed,its anger at its worse."

Just got back from causeway point with Lancelot a few mins ago.He got me a Billabong beanie which i am TOTALLY in love with!!!Thank YOU my friend!!MY adam sent me a couple piccies of him and i had them printed out today along with some others of mine.We talked for ages last night and it was just brilliant!!Luv ya loadzz my simply sweet!I shall see him on msn later.Mum didnt go to work today,she was feeling a lil sick. Had a lil row with her yesterday...i was yelling(even tho she wasnt the intended victim)but i just lost it.Im sorry,i really am but i did try but i couldnt stop the anger.Im sorry mum...i really am.Talked to mich last night and it was wacky as usual.Ha!!She's really great fun to talk to and a WICKEDLY SUPER COOL friend that i am proud to be friends with!!Thank YOU for being my amazing friend!!!I had a fan-bloody-tabby-bulous birthday ever!!My cousins came round and spend the entire day(well almost)at the mall and it was just amazing.Havent seen them in a long while and we took tonnes of pics as well and a couple of shots where we posed like "LINKINPARK".That was really cool!! :) I got a punk bag(with chains)from Loren(she's a star!!)and other random pressies as well!!Whoop!!Thanks loadzzz everyone!!!Luv ya guys!!*hugzz*

I had a weird dream abt Lord Of The Rings.I have no idea what it was abt cuz i dont remember much abt it.I missed my SVU last sunday but i did manage to catch Criminal Intent.Saw Whose Line Is It Anyway? on monday and that was awesome!!!It left me laughing till i was rolling all over the floor!!LoL!!I love that show!!It never fails to make me laugh.And their antics are just priceless...esp Drew Carey when he acts out.Hilarious hands down!!

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I got the pressie!!!!!!Wheeeeeeee SPLAT!!Thank YOU(yes you lovvie!!)for the amazingly brilliant and really cool bag with chains to boot!!!I LOVE it very much,now i have a new bag to go to school with when i start next year...so thank you again!! :) Eeeeekkk!!I cannot BELIEVE that im gonna be turning 20 in roughly....10 hours from now.OMG!!!20!!!!Arrrghhh!!!Tho i do NOT look like my age lol.Talked to my good friend saz yesterday,it was random and MY adam called me yesterday night...whoop!!Luv ya loadzzz my knight!!Mum "met" him via webcam.Watched Shark Tale the other day with my sister,it was pretty good.Next up is the Incredibles and Polar Express!!ALL ABOARD!!!Told Lancelot what i wanted for me birthday so next week we're gonna be out at town to go get it!!Yay!!Talked to chris-zilla yesterday,but he had to get off early...shame!!

Have a good weekend everyone!!

I talked to MY adam a few days ago and it was the BEST!!!!!!!!!I love his voice and he even sang to me!!! *grins* But of course i sang to him and he said i have a beautiful voice!!Ahhh i was in heaven!!Today he's gonna call me again...cant wait!!! :)

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P.s:Love this pix of chaz!!Full credit to the owner of this pic!!He looks much better with blondish hair!! \m/

Decided to update this into a slightly much better post.This has got to be the earliest im up(Its almost 11am here)So im bored bored bored.Ok lets start ranting shall we?Having a large bottle of coke with me *sighs* Im in heaven!!I seriously gotta cut down my coke intake.Im gonna be starting school next year and quite frankly im a lil bit scared.Not the usual case of trying to make new friends(ok maybe that too)but more abt the course that i'll be taking on!!Its no longer like my former school life where its chilling and relaxing.So no more playing or kidding around.Serious stuff so next year...I MEAN BUSINESS!!!Dont know if i can do it but i know deep inside...i KNOW i can...i juz gotta work hard!!Juz finished talking to MY adam and he's gonna call me today!!Yay!!!!I cant wait to get my butt there and spend the days/time there with him...and he's gonna come for my sister's graduation too!!Ive found Sauron's ring and a new silver bracelet which i havent worn before.Im a sucker for silver stuff and ive already asked Lancelot what i want for my b'day!!!Wheeehee!!!Speaking of birthdays,my wonderful friend's sister,Kelly,juz had her birthday so...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :) And mine's coming up next week,gah...im turning the BIG 20 soon. *eyes almost pop out*

For the first time in days,ive talked to dad.Havent spoken or seen each other for a lil bit,mostly cuz he's busy with the shop and stuff.Talked to chris(missed the guy!)cant believe i used to like him...lol..well he IS a gd looking bloke but i still have and want MY adam. *big grin* Ooo and he gave me a new nickname too!!Now im officially called LOOPY LOONY LYNNA!!!! *laughs* Luv how the name rhymes,wicked!!And he is THE Cookie Chrispylicious Chris or AKA Chris-Zilla!!! ;) He loves the nickname i gave him too,lol.Such a funni guy.He even gave me a "virtual tour" of the room he was in.And we even did some funny antics on webcam,he and me.He made me laugh loadzz and vice versa.Oh yeah,i almost forgot.Me and my sister got lost(yes lost!!)in our own bloody neighbourhood.I cant even imagine how on earth we could do that but we did!!!Good god,its gotta be the biggest joke of the year i tell ya lol lol. *shakes head* Talked to Loren yesterday,comp went screwy,didnt know if it was mine or hers.Had a dream where i met the entire SVU cast,it was great.I got autographs & pictures of em. It was wicked!!I remember talking to Wong and Olivia loadz and the two attorneys were there as well,Alexandra "Alex" Cabot & Casey Novak.Speaking of SVU,tomorrow the shows are up and so is Criminal Intent,another wicked cop show.Oh yeah...ive already cut my hair and i soooo look like Casey Novak lol.Listening to LinkinPark at the mo...BLOODY GOOD band!!CHESTER BENNINGTON ROCKS MY SOCKS!!! *bows to the dude*

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P.s:Full credit to the person who snapped this pic.Luv this shot...check out those flames and his other many tatts!!!

Im a very happy fit babe today!!!Wheeeeheee!!!I talked to MY adam today and its was the best convo i had!!!He asked me what i wanted for my birthday(which is approaching soon!!)and xmas and he said this,I quote "If u would like something,of course u get something.Now what would u like?" Hahaha so i told him the options of the things i liked and he's promised to surprise me.Im off tomorrow with my lil god-sis to the mall and see if i can find any nice tops and boxers for him.Havent seen sis in a looooong while.Talked to ilkka today and mich wasnt online.Tch!!Ooo and i know what im getting for YOU lovvie!!Ahaha!!Yes yes,my sis gave me the idea,so im gonna scout around for it!!Played the Harry Potter game,im very bored at home lol.Did some house chores today for mum and i went to bed early yesterday which has gotta be the first!!Just came off from watching Whose Line Is It Anyways?This is a MUST-SEE!!This episode one is FLIPPING hilarious!!I was laughing so much till it left me rolling on the floor,convulsing in fits of laughter!!!I think Rupert Grint & Tom Felton are hotties,and so is dreamy Hayden Christensen!! *drools* Dark haired and mysterious!!So far,no random weird dreams,last one was of chester.Read my other entry,its kinda hilarious.

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Hola people!!!Grandma's here!!!She's constantly surprising us with her random visits!Im having a coke at the mo,isnt supposed to have one but who cares lol.I cleaned up my room last night and it looks oh sooo much better and today i helped my sis with her room.We're off to causeway point tomorrow(yay!)I had a weird but nice dream...lol.I was in a bus(but someone sabotaged it and one of the tyres blew)but what made it slightly more interesting was the whole linkinpark band was there and chester was sitting right next to me!!It was like he was my boyfriend or something cuz we had our arms around each other and were sitting pretty close!And my sister snapped a pix of us.And then chester kissed me(how odd lol)and then he was grinning and saying something random,he felt nice and cuddly to hug tho!!I met Mike too and he flashed me a brilliant smile and he sang a few verses for me(he DOES have a great voice!!)and i got a hug from him but chester was shooting daggers at him lol,it was a funny sight indeed.Phoenix was there too but i didnt see much of him and i didnt even see the rest of the band.Sad.And then when the tyre blew...BOOM!!Everyone started to panic(chester was trying to comfort me,he was really sweet)somehow we managed not to crash the bus tho it did give a sudden jolt at the brakes and SLAM!!!!Eeveryone literally were thrown forward!!Hey at least I got THAT close to my idol,and thats more than good enough for me tho meeting them IN person like normal fans is way much better lol but for now the dream works for me.And this is just the first,my other dream was i had a gun(again!)and i was stalking someone.I was trained to kill and this "someone" was my first victim so i have to shoot him...and i did,not once but quite a few times.It felt good to see the fear in his eyes.Eeeekkk!!Quite a brutal person i am in my dreams lol.Apologies!!!

But i NEVER say sorry,a word i dont pratice at all.Dont know why and being touted as "cold & emotionless" hey,cant help being me but ive learnt not to be THAT cold.Sure im emotionless,i agree but that doesnt mean i dont know or have any feelings cuz i do,i juz dont wear em on my sleeves.Personally, i hate showing MY inner thoughts or feelings to people cuz they might take advantage of me,well thats my perception,i could be wrong.But i DO care for my family and friends.Im dead loyal and am VERY fiercely protective of em.Hurt them and you're history.

I miss Lancelot very much,even tho we live nearby,we hardly see each other at all.Talked to yallow queen a while ago and i missed her and my other matez very much.I hope to see all of you soon!!!!And Bryan!!You still owe me a dinner treat!!Im off to town next week to get some more books for my wonderful friend Loren.And i had the most wonderful chat with my two amazing friends last night...Mich from Slovakia and Ilkka from Finland.They're really nice and funny and im proud to call them my friends!!We three were laughing our heads off non-stop and poor Ilkka was in tears.Mich always cracks me up,esp with that icon.Haha!!I hope they make it here one day.I have been de-stressing myself with coke these days. *sighs* Cant wait till fasting month is over.Need to hit the gyms as soon as its over...whoohoo!!!Had a blast talking to chris the other day,he's really a nice brit bloke.Cant wait to fly to glasgow for a holiday and see him.He's promised to take me around and of course,every gurl's dream..SHOPPING!!Ayy you better do or else...mwahahaha!!!Oooo found another 4 by 4 that i really likes...its called the X-Trail,dont know which car company is making that,will find out later.Saw the exclusive clip of "Star Wars Epidose 3:Revenge of the Sith" on tv.Honestly,i cant wait for that next year when it comes out!!Whoop!!

Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY!!!

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P.s:Whoever took this pic of LP,full credits to ya!!! \m/ Rock on guys!!